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我錯了

 先講禪宗的故事。
                                                                               
 五祖弘忍大師欲傳衣缽,叫弟子們各做一首偈,他要從中意境,
                                                                               
 挑選出禪宗東來的最後一任接班人。
                                                                               
 (很像Trump主持的那個節目吧XD)
                                                                               
 其中最受大眾推崇的上座弟子神秀,作了一首偈子說:「身是菩提樹,心如明鏡台;
                                                                               
 時時勤拂拭,勿使惹塵埃。」
                                                                               
 大眾看了都讚歎神秀境界很高,但五祖卻批評說:「作得不錯,但是尚未見道。」
                                                                               
 這時在舂米房工作的惠能,半夜裡也請人在牆上代寫了一首偈子說:「菩提本無樹,
                                                                               
 明鏡亦非台;本來無一物,何處惹塵埃?」
                                                                               
 而惠能也因會這首偈子,繼承五祖衣缽。
                                                                               
 關於這個故事還有一個衍生的小故事,當五祖弘忍看到在牆上的
                                                                               
 惠能所做的偈子,他只做了一個動作,就是拿下鞋子,把牆上的字一個個抹去。
 
 就走了。
                                                                               
 這就是禪宗的教學方法,不立文字,教外別傳。設立公案,希望能心領神會。
                                                                               
 若是普通人一定說,這個老頭是在幹嘛?人家寫的好,你也決定把衣缽傳給他,
                                                                               
 你幹嘛還要做這個白癡動作?
                                                                               
 其實弘忍想表達的是,本來已無一物,那應該連文字都沒有,萬物皆空,
                                                                               
 才是心領神會。
                                                                               
 一個動作,端看自己如何去解讀。
                                                                               
 可以說弘忍老了得了AD,你也可以說弘忍真的很有禪意。
                                                                               
                                                                               
 我從來沒有想過要害人,要罵人。
                                                                               
 我只希望透過一些事件的表達,讓對方能夠更多瞭解一些事情。
                                                                               
 你們說罵髒話很沒水準,我只能說,出了校園,有80%的人都是屬於這個level的,
 
 不然回去看看巷口的金字塔那篇文章,我覺得很寫實,那是真實世界。
                                                                               
                                                                               
 而對於這種事情,我只能期盼有緣人得知,我知道這樣子的成功機率少之又少,
                                                                               
 只是我還是得嘗試著做。
                                                                               
 就像五祖弘忍,他也不會怕說抹字這個動作弟子們把他當作瘋子,
                                                                               
 率性而為,那才是真正的禪意,他也不會說唉唷怎麼大家都不懂,我再來多解釋一下,
                                                                               
 其實這種事情懂的人就懂,生命歷練到了一個境界就能心領神會,沒到那個境界的,
                                                                               
 說再多不懂的還是不懂。
                                                                               
                                                                               
 所以我只能希望她在未來的某一天中,到了那個境界,
                                                                               
 然後想起來說原來我想要表達的是這個,但我也不排除她終其一生也不瞭解的可能性。
                                                                               
                                                                               
 我還是回到事情的本末,她覺得她這樣做,率性而為很ok,
 
 我用一個low level的方式來做動作,當一面鏡子,反射出她的所作所為,
                                                                               
 妳high level嘛,用的是MSN,
                                                                                
 我們low level的人就只會幹訐,沒別的會。
                                                                               
 但是這兩種都是任性而為,也都會對對方造成傷害,
                                                                                
 這並沒有誰好誰壞之分,市井小民就只會這一套,王公貴族有貴族的作法,
                                                                               
 人生有百態。
                                                                               
                                                                               
 我很努力做,若是每一個人都對我有誤解,也沒關係。
                                                                               
 我能自得其樂。
                                                                               
 我想引用學長描述對宋老師的觀察,
                                                                               
 他說宋老師以前脾氣很大,學生做不好就生氣罵,罵完了再叫來呼呼,
                                                                               
 希望學生能順利畢業。
 
 現在不一樣,宋老師只會酸人,學生要不要做是你家的事情,
                                                                                 
 你要三年畢業四年畢業都是你家的事。
                                                                                
 他覺得以前的宋老師比較疼學生,因為他急切的希望學生變好。
                                                                               
                                                                               
 我也是同樣的想法。
                                                                               
 我很後悔誤淌渾水,我的雞婆換來了對方的不諒解,
                                                                               
 老實說,對方未來怎樣關我闢室,
                                                                               
 她發了也不會拿錢來分我。
                                                                               
 我只是覺得大家有緣一場,我盡力而為,
                                                                               
 但我真的要說,我真的覺得我錯了。
 
 以後不會再雞婆,我只要管好自己的事就好。
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